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To be a writer

Means to have yet another excuse for bad behavior.

It means that when I sit next to you and I am wrestling the
smoke from your cigarette like a bear I want to believe
we'll end up on the floor in gritty film rolls and beer cans
and start to choke.

Because I remember how the whiskey made her eyes
shine and her her hair a swimming pool. When she took
me aside and said

"You two are going to destroy each other," with a little
Parisian smile. Expecting one day to read great mythology
that we made with bread knives we stuck in each other's
eyes.

So one day I felt like being more clever than
romantic and I caught you by the shoulder

And I said,
"You know, we're going to destroy each other."

You didn't laugh but I saw you wanted to because
your mouth was like a tepid hurricane and your hands
were reaching out the window to throw a tree at me.

And you said,
"No, darling, I don't have time for that."

It was spring and all that was in your hands
was rabbit water and flowers.

You know what it means.

It means I will tell you my dog was a Russian cosmonaut.
If I fuck someone they become my new editor. I get jealous
when a husband kills some other wife's seven children.

It means that sometimes I remember what you
once said to me.

It's quiet here at the edge of the room. I'm
learning we're not all meant for tragedy, at least
not all at once.

I want to sit here working when the next luckless
paramour busts down my door

And push her away.
You're beginning to remember what it's like
those days as a Civil War soldier, understanding that adventure sometimes mean you'll end up with your
stomach on the grass
and wolves and badgers will crawl out of their holes to
lick at the edges.

That doesn't keep you from wanting to have adventures
and the sex that turns into smoke if you turn just the
right angle.

You know what it means to live, baby
and now you're going to have to go
all the way.
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ScorpionHoliday Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013
still one of my favorite pieces. ah I wish I had money. I would spend it all on your books
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Snow-Machine Featured By Owner May 26, 2013
Send me a message at axtian@gmail.com, I'll see what I can do.
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ScorpionHoliday Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2013
I sent you a message. c: I hope that it sends, it was on my phone. (I don't have a computer anymore. just use my friends once in a life time.) please let me know if you get it!
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Counselor-Vidkun Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012
oh god this was amazing. rrdfjkslw god i can't express words for your writing. every single word pieces together, and expresses an emotion you can't quite put your finger to simply because you're in too much aw to truly understand how it's making you feel. god my favorite line is "I get jealous when a husband kills some other wife's seven children" that line is just so damn good! is it weird i find it kind of adorable? I don't know why, i suppose i have a friend who reminds me of that line.

this is also really damn good:
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So one day I felt like being more clever than
romantic and I caught you by the shoulder

And I said,
"You know, we're going to destroy each other."

You didn't laugh but I saw you wanted to because
your mouth was like a tepid hurricane and your hands
were reaching out the window to throw a tree at me.

And you said,
"No, darling, I don't have time for that."

I just....God that sounds like quite a relationship.

I don't know why but your work just really stands out to me. it's bold, and passionate. that's the word i've been looking for. if i had to describe your work in just one word, passionate would be my best offer.
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Snow-Machine Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012
So glad you like it. I miss writing poetry. I had a boyfriend who said my poetry was bad, so I stopped out of shame. But it has a purity that prose does not.
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Counselor-Vidkun Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2013
tell that boyfriend to fuck off.

your writing is amazing. they're poetic and full of power. I guess some people can't appreciate it, but that's their fault. the people who know good writing always look for powerful words that fill up their heads with ideas and their chests with emotions. and I don't know about anyone else, but that's what your stories do for me. c:
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KichiRain Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2011
Why do I not know what "rabbit water" is?
I feel like I should have this information in my life.
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HaveTales-WillTell Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2011  Professional Writer
It's a little jumpy, but I love the imagery. And I take it to mean that the devil's in the details.
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RalfMaximus Featured By Owner May 7, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Remember when we all lived in the forest?

This reminds me of that.
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cloaked-nouveau Featured By Owner May 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
You know what it means.

and i hope i do.
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